The post PMS entry

Ok, so I was a little dramatic last week with the "I give up" message.... and since my Aunt Flo decided to pay a visit today, I realized I can chalk it all up to PMS-ing and stress.

The stress is still there.  I STILL haven't found a job, which is pretty much unheard of.  I'm submitting an average of 100+ resumes per week and I've had 2 interviews.  Out of hundreds of resumes.  I have a pretty solid skill set, I've worked for major companies such as Discover Card and Abbott Laboratories and TWO INTERVIEWS?  Seriously?

Money's gone, I literally have maybe some pennies to my name.  We somehow managed to come up with July's rent and $900 to keep our electric on, but the cable/phone/internet was shut off, my car is thisclose to being repossessed and I had to go to a FOOD PANTRY to get some food in the house...all thanks to the $1900 that had to materialize within 4 days in order to not lose our house and to have electricity.

I have an interview tomorrow with a medical dynamo around these parts, to be a pharmacy technician.  I'll make a little more than 1/2 of what I was making at my last job but I don't care one bit.  I've been applying for WAITRESSING positions even, not that there's anything wrong with that at all, however when you go from making $23.50 an hour to "I'll serve drinks for $2 tips!!"  well, it's humbling to say the least.

The pharm tech position though is mostly 1st shift as opposed to the 3rd shift I was working before, and rather than being 47 miles each way thru awful Chicago-area traffic, I'll be working about 5 minutes from my house in beautiful Wisconsin.  Maybe I'll never have to go into Illinois again, I'm okay with that.

So wish me luck tomorrow, and in general.  Emotionally I'm a wreck, I miss my daughter tremendously (she's with her dad for 2/3's of the summer), I'm freaking out about not having any money - knowing nothing is coming in, because really, if I don't get something this week, we'll lose our house come August 1st.

 **Edited to add**  I forgot to mention that Eric & I finally had sex.